Quick Trip to Cali

Thursday, December 15th,  I got a text from my friend Deanna saying that she would see me on Friday.  I told her I wouldn't be there to decorate my sister's tree.  She was so blown away, especially when she found out my brother wouldn't be able to come either.  Well,  the next thing I know I have a plane ticket home to Cali!

My flight was at 6:05 am.  I missed my flight.  I got there at 6:10.  The airport was crazy busy at 5:30 in the morning, which I didn't expect.  So I got to my gate and the plane had left.  A lot of the other flights were completely full, but we finally found me a flight home!

I landed at 11:55 in the new terminal at the Sacramento Airport.  I was so confused.  to get to baggage claim I had to ride on a tram.  I was so lost.  It was way cool and the airport is so cool but I was lost.  It was supposed to be a surprise but because I missed my flight I ended up telling my mom I was coming home.  She knew, I told my sister, and Jill knew.  Jill helped me make it a surprise.  It was wonderful!  My grandma was all Krista you told me you couldn't come and hugged me.  She was excited.

It was such a nice trip!  Weather was good and it was just a fun trip!  We decorated Desi's tree at the cemetery,  went to pizza, went shopping with my dad (which was a blast),  talked to my grandma, hung out with my mom, went to Sam's birthday party, and oh ya found out my cat was dead!  That part wasn't great.  My cat was 18 years old.  My mom was all um so we didn't want to tell you right away but we can't find ashes!  I was like mom I was looking for ashes the minute I got home.  Come to find out my mom, dad, and Jill have been looking for ashes.  I was like dad my cat is dead and he smiled. All I could do was laugh and say what is wrong with you people!

When I went to say bye to my Grandma on Sunday I swear I saw my cat.  But it ran away from me.  So that must not have been my cat.  So I guess my cat has really died.  18 years was a long time!

I got home Sunday night and we are leaving to go back to Cali, Thursday afternoon.  I can't wait to see my family again!

10 years ago, Dec 15th & 16th, was the start of a long week and a few long years.

10 years ago today was the last time I talked to my sister and have her talk back. Tomorrow will be my sisters 10 year death anniversary. ( My sister actually passed away the same day my grandma Billie did but a year later)  How crazy?!  It was a Saturday morning and I went into Desi's room and asked her to borrow one of her shirts.  She said yes!  She never let me borrow her clothes.  I was so excited I remember grabbing it so quick before she could change her mind.  My family was planning to go to the snow but Desi didn't go because she wasn't feeling that good.  I remember her asking me to stay home and go shopping with her.  I had told her no because I didn't know when I would be able to go to the snow again.  She was all are you sure?  and I had told her yes and that I'd see her later and I loved her.

I had the worst day at the snow!  My feet were frozen so I went back to the truck and sat in the back until everyone else was done playing.  It was horrible.  

                                    "picture of Desi, my dad, and I at my Grandparents house"

When I got home, I asked my mom if Desi already left and she had but that she wasn't staying out late.  My Uncle Andy asked me to come watch his kids so him and my aunt could go shopping.  My parents also went shopping for Christmas.  I remember when my Uncles house phone rang I knew something was wrong.  My Grandpa was on the phone and I knew something was wrong but what he said wasn't what I was expecting.  He had told me Desi had been in an accident and to get the kids ready because my Grandma was coming to pick Josh and I up to go to the hospital and he was going to watch the kids.  I knew then that it wasn't good.    

When we got to the hospital I could barely breathe.  My Uncle Steve walked us inside while we just cried.  We couldn't get a hold of my parents, So my aunt and uncle went and searched for them.  We also had a family friend waiting at the house in case they came home.  They made there way to the hospital and the nurse had Jess, Josh, and myself go into a meeting room where my parents were.  We had a family prayer and I knew she wasn't going to make it.  I remember Jessica holding Josh and I while we sat on the floor.  At this point so many people were at the hospital.  

We were finally able to see Desi and it was the hardest thing!  I just wanted her to wake up.  As hours go by she wasn't doing any better.   I remember when my family decided to take her off support that her heart rate started dropping.  I remember holding her right hand and my dad and mom on her left.  My dad said don't go and her heart rate would get stronger.

When she finally passed away around 3am on December16th I remember just dropping to my knees.  When everyone cleared the room I went back in and sat next to her and just cried.  I kissed her hand and her head and just cried.  I went outside and sat on the floor.  My dad sat next to me and had then pulled Josh over as well.  I was hyperventilating and my dad was calming me down.  

My sister, my best friend, and my roommate for years had passed away.  It has been 10 years since that day but I still remember everything!  I even remember the Friday before her accident when she had driven me home from school.  Before we went home, we went to Bel Air to get huge deli pickles!

"Fall Homecoming football game,  My sister was Royalty.  This was a few months before she passed away" 

I can't imagine what my parents went through and go through not having one of there kids here.  It has been so hard on me losing my sister but I have also learned so much.  My family is even closer than we were!  We now take so many pictures when we are together.  I am such a picture person.  I love having the memories in pictures to go along with memories in my head.  It is also nice to see the faces of the ones you love.  The savior has taught me so much through this trial.  I knew he won't give me a trial I can't handle, even when it is really hard.  I cherish the little things and I laugh more than usual.  

I love my family so much.  I am grateful for where I am in my life right now.  I love being married to Scott who holds me when I am down and laughs when I laugh.  He listens to my stories, even if I have told him the same story before.  I am so glad I have the gospel in my life and grateful for the power of prayer.  I have such a strong relationship with my family and it means everything to me that they are in my life.  

This time of the year is always hard but now it is more about laughing about memories, some tears, and just smiling that we had her in our life and that we will see her again.  

White Christmas... The 1954 classic!!

Last night I caught the last part of White Christmas on AMC, one of my favorite Christmas Movies.  This is one of the last movies I remember watching with Desi.  We were at my Grandparents house and my grandma walked in the living room and was all hey this looks like White Christmas.  we laughed and said Grandma this is White Christmas. haha  Oh the laughs.  I love that movie!  I can't believe it is almost Christmas.  Time is just flying.  I can't wait to go to California to see my family.  This December is 10 years since my sister passed away.  It'll be nice to be with my family.

                                   I love, love, love this song and dance. The outfits are so cute!

                   This part of the movie makes me want to dress up and get spun around! I love her shoes!

 Makes me laugh!!!  Sisters Sisters. There were never such devoted sisters

If you haven't watched White Christmas before you need to watch it.  Especially if you love musicals like I do!  

17 Day Diet starting again

The last time I did the 17 Day Diet I lost 10 lbs.  I have been off the diet for almost 2 months and I have kept off the 10 lbs I previously lost.  Well, I am starting it up again before Christmas.  Good thing I like this diet but man has it been hard to start back up.  I think I am finally done with getting sick, so hopefully I can go strong on my diet and lose more weight.  Bring it on weight loss!

Stockings for the first time since 2000

Christmas 2000 was the last Christmas we had stockings up until now.  When my sister passed away December 16, 2001, my family still hadn't put up stockings and it was to hard on all of us especially my parents to put them up.  So every year after we just never put them up.  It just wasn't the same.  When we were younger we all decorated our stockings with glitter.  My mom would buy glue and glitter shakers.  I loved it.  So this year I put up stockings and that is what I did.  It is a good memory and something so simple.  I don't need a 10 dollar stocking.  I just need a cheap stocking, glitter, and glue.

I love Christmas!  I really do.  It is still a hard time though.  I am constantly thinking about my sister and the fun times we had.  I remember this one time, we shared a bedroom, and she told me I couldn't come on her side of the room.  Well her side of the room had the door to leave the room.  so she made me a pathway.  haha.  I have so many fun memories with her.  I just wish I had more.  But I am grateful for the ones I have.  Man I miss my sister so much and December will always bring back those feelings that my sister is no longer here. I am grateful for religion and that I know I will see her again but it is still hard.  I miss her so much!  December 16th will be 10 years!  10 years!  I can't believe it.  I am so grateful for my family and for Scott.  I can't wait to go home and see my family.

Family and friends, please remember to love those you are with.  I know they can drive you crazy but enjoy the little things and the big.  Smile, laugh, say sorry, drive safe,  and I know there will be Christmas parties coming up,  please don't drink and drive.  The ones who are drinking are at risk and so are the innocent people on the road!  Please be smart!